urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88 a trophy display of bruises a trophy display of bruises 2003-11-29T06:35:41Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:65809 2003-11-29T06:35:41Z 2003-11-29T06:35:41Z Alkaline Trio - Alkaline Trio - Hell Yes the past couple days have been a trip<br />mindless was quite a different experience<br />instead of people getting helped up when they stomp u down<br />it's a different scene, the people we're pretty cool and i had fun<br />thanksgiving was ok<br />today went 2 nicks<br />everything wasnt as bad as i thought it would be<br />tomorrow got work and then who knows<br />not to much longer until WINTER BREAK<br />thank god. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:65728 2003-09-30T20:50:45Z 2003-09-30T20:50:45Z this is my last entry<br />ill tell you why<br />theres a certain someone out there<br />who wants to know her son's every move<br />and is so paranoid she has to read his friends's livejournal<br />she won't let him grow up at all, and is trying to lock him up for eternity , for no good reason<br />this guy I'm talking about doesn't do all kinds of drugs and doesn't go out making every girl he knows pregnat, but still is treated like it.<br />She thinks I'm a bad influence, but doesn't know me at all, or maybe it's because I'm older, but wait, that makes no sense either.<br />Basicly they need someone to take their frustrations on, and guess who they choose. This is really immature, and unfair to him because he doesn't deserve this. And you wonder why he never wants to be home, it's because you make him feel like shit about everything.<br /><br /><br /> this is just a side note from another:<br /><br /> i dont get it. i dont get why certain parents have to meddle in their kids' lives way more than they should be. parents are meant to be there to support their kids, to protect their kids, but most of all, to let their kids live their life and go through what they're supposed to go through. relationships, friends . . crazy stuff . . all that junk-o. some kids end up with crappy parents, the kind that don't watch over them and the kind that just let them ron amock and do whatever, but in my eyes . . that's not the only type of crappy parent. a crappy parent is someone that doesn't care if their kid is happy. it's someone who has no good reason for judging TEENAGERS and gets in the middle of things that they shouldn't be getting into. it's a parent who doesn't trust her kid enough, it's a parent that has to constantly call, constantly look at people's profiles, even their online journals . . to find out what's going on. what's the need to find out every single thing your kid does? so you can punish them? make them feel horrible? get them in trouble for things that they do even when they're not doing anything wrong? <br />why is it a big deal that someone hangs out with a person a year older than them? does that mean that one year makes someone a bad person? i know for a fact the majority of moms in this world have a husband who's at least a year older than them ..<br /> and i guarantee that most happy kids don't have parents in all their business, telling them who's good and who's bad<br />i think if you bring someone into this world you're spozed to protect them to a certain extent, yea . . but you're not supposed to live their lives for them. why did you bother having kids if you're just gonna control their every single move? you're not a teenager anymore . . you're an adult. act like one.<br /><br />thanks for that <br />it's the end urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:65417 2003-09-29T00:30:15Z 2003-09-29T00:30:15Z nofx - drugs are good all day didn't do anything<br />vern called<br />vern and emma picked me trish and nick up<br />went out to eat some pizza<br />went to the motel <br />iced up the "stuff" girls went on a supply run<br />eventually meg lisa jeremy aaron derek and other ppl came<br />cops were everywhere when we dropped nick off<br />went back to the room i fell asleep for a good while<br />i woke up with emma spooning me and jeremy puking his lungs out<br />once he went to sleep it was all good<br />ended up sleeping with emma and derek on the floor<br />woke up @ 8am had a fun morning<br />ate some cheapo fast food chilled told jeremy his story<br />then the drama started....<br />derek didnt tell his mom where he was so she was looking for him<br />she called emma's and vern's<br />vern's mom called<br />no one knew where theyre kids were<br />everyone was freaking out<br />we packed up i went home with emma<br />and i end up holding all the liquor<br />even though the details here are a little vague<br />overall i had a fun night<br />today i went to finding nemo with my baby<br />love that kid<br />can't believe tomorrows monday already<br />it all went by to fast<br />hopefully this week goes by fast urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:64924 2003-09-21T04:51:33Z 2003-09-21T04:51:33Z msi - i hate jimmy page ive been thinking<br />i think the end of the world just might be tomorrow<br />had an aweful day<br />not surprising at all, infact i can't believe i wasn't expecting it<br />i was wondering why I'm here, and the purpose of my exsitance<br />and i couldn't answer<br />but really..<br />who would everyone take their frustations on ?<br />who would everyone treat like shit when they're down ?<br />exactly<br />that's why I'm here<br />I hope I make you feel better because you feel like shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:64560 2003-09-20T18:50:58Z 2003-09-20T18:53:17Z msi - bring the pain this whole week was shit<br />nick ran away over here on wednesday<br />smart move<br />emmas sister has cancer<br />and all this drama that i have been trying to aviod<br />is coming up behind me once again<br />but...<br />derek picked me up from work last night<br />and we were having a good time<br />something always has to ruin something good<br />got pulled over for no good reason<br />derek is going through a lot of shit too<br />not to mention<br />britni is going through a lot of drama too<br />winter is coming early this year<br />just to make me more miserable urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:64280 2003-09-15T22:18:46Z 2003-09-15T22:18:46Z yesterday<br />took a train to brookfield<br />met up with emma and her friends robyn and tonya<br />took a train to chicago, took a cab to wrigleyfield<br />walked around, went into strange cargo.. super kewl<br />went to the metro a lot of people sucked<br />Joe was super kewl<br />all in all the show was pretty awesome<br />one man crowd, 7th grade underdog, and the last addition<br />the band member were all super cool too<br />had some fun after the wonderful week i had<br />today...<br />nothing interesting<br />its gonna be another long boring week<br />surprise ! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:64051 2003-09-14T06:39:19Z 2003-09-14T06:42:57Z dashboard confessional - bend and not break today<br />went to nicks<br />he's sick as hell<br />went to work<br />kinda sucked<br />danny came a visited me<br />jim and liz picked me up<br />went to blockbuster<br />on the way home<br />car got out of control<br />almost hit a tree<br />got stuck in a ditch<br />a lot of cops showed up<br />an ambulance rolled in<br />couldnt get a hold of my dad<br />so i got tied down<br />to the stretcher<br />i liked the paramedics<br />but i hated being strapped down like a mental patient<br />got to the hospital<br />had to wait strapped down for atleast 20 minutes<br />a doctor came saw that i was fine<br />got let out<br />waited another half hour<br />nice cop drove me home<br />since dad hates me<br />got home<br />still freaked out<br />my whole week was so terrible<br />and i guess this is the perfect ending to such a tragedy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:63870 2003-09-12T03:47:42Z 2003-09-12T03:47:42Z blink 182 - voyeur my death day<br />sucked and was alright<br />all at the same time<br />molly baked me cookies<br />vern got me a bunch of cute stuff<br />trish drew an awesome picture<br />emma wore a kick ass shirt for me<br />danika got me a balloon and stuff<br />meghan got me a card<br />and everyone and their mom said happy birthday<br />but the drama kicked in<br />and its my fault<br />and i feel cheated<br />so that was the start of a bad time<br />it got better<br />talked to nick<br />walked with him and emma to her house<br />chilled<br />dad was a huge dick to me<br />didnt take me to my class<br />got better tho<br />went out with vrn trish jeremy and emma<br />rode around crazy style<br />i love them<br />came home everything was alright<br />andy stopped by to say happy birthday<br />thanks to everyone who was nice to me today<br />it means a lot urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:63596 2003-09-10T04:19:10Z 2003-09-10T04:19:10Z taking back sunday - timberwolves at new jersey everything is getting stressfuul and depressing already<br />nick is going through to much<br />he goes through so much for me<br />i don't care what his family says about me or us<br />we're never gonna stop seeing each other<br />i dont understand why they think they're gonna influence him at all<br />It's making me feel aweful seeing him like this<br />In addition,<br />I'm deeply in debt already<br />I started drivers ed, I have to start missing a lot of work<br />court was interesting this past monday<br />my birthday is going to be terrible, but I'm not worried<br />Vern and Ashley are fighting with Derek and Jeremy<br />i hate it<br />Emma is being a jerk off lately<br />nick is depressed as fuck<br />drew is being a fucking prick<br />and my dad is a psycopathic asshole bitch fuck<br />this just might be a little to much urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:63381 2003-09-05T03:22:46Z 2003-09-05T03:22:46Z dashboard confessional - standard lines today<br />was boring<br />after school went to geography meeting<br />made nick go<br />derek drove him home<br />chilled @ dereks<br />drove to rq<br />picked jeremy up<br />went to elmhurst<br />freezing ass cold<br />but it was fun none the less<br />tomorrows friday<br />hope nick can get out of his prison urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:63010 2003-09-04T02:37:44Z 2003-09-04T02:37:44Z dashboard confessional - hands down after the long day of school emma and myself walked to wendys<br />derek found us, and we went to the mall<br />hot topic is gay, but the people that work there rock<br />went to emmas straightened dereks hair<br />nick came over derek left, bleached my hair<br />nick left, anthony came over 2 minutes later<br />my hair looked like shit<br />chilled for a bit<br />around 10:30 went to jewel to get more hair dye<br />anthony went home, me and emma walked back to her house<br />bleached her hair, dyed mine....<br />dyed her hair and at about 1:30 is i started homework<br />her hair turned out good, mine is fucked up as always<br />i think it became my trademark<br />woke up late, both of us looked like coke adicts<br />thats okay<br />the day was ok i think<br />work was ehh<br />next 2 days off, woo<br />down with school urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:62875 2003-09-01T06:22:03Z 2003-09-01T06:22:03Z dashboard confessional - age six racer the day was slow and ugly<br />work was pretty aweful<br />nick came over<br />watched donnie darko<br />he burned me another cd<br />he's changed<br />i dont know why or how<br />and its kinda scary<br />but i like it urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:62610 2003-08-31T05:58:26Z 2003-08-31T06:00:47Z rancid - olympia wa went to trishs last night<br />a lot of ppl were there<br />nicks mom tracked him down<br />not allowed to see me anymore<br />his sister sees him with me the next day at the game<br />he gets grounded<br />i leave with britni<br />go to laurens<br />have a good time<br />until<br />ryan eurdell kissed me<br />i have never felt so disgusted in myself<br />i feel raped<br />this is aweful<br />ive never missed nick so much <br />this sucks urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:62317 2003-08-28T20:22:58Z 2003-08-28T20:22:58Z the vandals - hungry for you it has started...<br />yesterday wasnt that bad i guess<br />i even like a lot of the people in my classes<br />emma nikki jordan taylor tom...<br />i dont see nick that much, same with anthony<br />my math teacher is the bitch from hell<br />working today...<br />off friday and saturday<br />thank you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:62157 2003-08-26T18:29:43Z 2003-08-26T18:33:07Z the used - greener with the scenery so it's all over now<br />the last day of freedom<br />that's ok<br />i dont think ive wasted to much time<br />working to much<br />but this summer will always be remembered<br />just because of 2 weeks in heaven<br />hmm yep that's right back to prison tommorrow<br />lately been working<br />went to nicks last night<br />caused another fight, watched fear and loathing<br />still don't know whats going on with us<br />i have to read for english <br />teachers are screwballs<br />let's make this year worth the trouble of getting up early in the morning...<br /><br />you took it back<br />how could you go and do something like that<br />my fingernail phase<br />worst has got the best of you<br />I ask you and I know I need to change<br />you took it back<br />you ripped my heart out of my then you put it back<br />I'm pulling my hair<br />I let you just a million times<br />I love you even though it isn't fair <br />change<br />run we go around again in circles<br />play this game over again urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:61740 2003-08-24T18:01:35Z 2003-08-24T18:03:05Z blink 182 - M+Ms bleugh<br />nothing special going on<br />can't even remember the last couple days<br />all have been a blur<br />me and vern bought afi and taking back sunday/saves the day tix<br />something to be excited about<br />i dont know whats goin on with me an nick<br />but for now<br />im cramming for english trying to read those stupid books<br />bastard urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:61503 2003-08-19T05:41:38Z 2003-08-19T16:55:30Z the used - poetic tragedy nick is nuts<br />tonight was crazy<br />i know to much<br />and it makes me sick urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:60931 2003-08-18T03:08:01Z 2003-08-18T03:08:01Z the used - alone this holiday hmm<br />yeah yesterday hung out with nick<br />payed for my ticket, that was nice<br />played on the roof, got in trouble<br />matt called @ 1<br />went there, left @ 7:30 am<br />woke up went to the mall<br />watched x games<br />working 11 - 9 tomorrow<br />thats gonna suck<br />my dad is an idiot<br />all i want for my birthday<br />is my nose peirced<br />he's trying everything in his power to try and stop me<br />not gonna happen urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:60736 2003-08-15T04:09:57Z 2003-08-15T04:09:57Z i miss drew urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:60630 2003-08-14T03:20:49Z 2003-08-14T03:23:33Z descendents - hope today<br />went out with verno emma and nick<br />drove around , went to bubs<br />sarah kurt works there now<br />bummer<br />emma didn't notice i was being a bitch to her<br />yeah i like nick again<br />i love verno<br />im supposedly in her band now<br />if only i could play urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:60332 2003-08-12T06:20:07Z 2003-08-12T06:20:07Z bikini kill - liar today...<br />worked and closed<br />talked with nikki emma and nick on the phone<br />roland and nikki came here<br />went out to taco grill<br />saw liz and jim<br />lots of scary guys out at 1 in the morning on a monday<br />tomorrow working...<br />wednesday should be action packed urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:60047 2003-08-10T06:48:52Z 2003-08-10T06:48:52Z blink 182 - action hey !<br />yeah i've been having some fun. Amamzing? yes.<br />Last night i closed for ashley, and it was fun cuz me and mike ate the whole time, and i got to know him better.<br />Tonight I closed for Theresa, and i closed with vern.<br />Oh yeah you bet your ass it was fun as hell. Once again ate a lot, and stole some beer.<br />Went driving around, met up with trish and lisa.<br />we put those radar sign things infront of debbie bensfield's house (ha!) and we stole some lawn ornements (and got caught by one the the neighbors...) but yes we all got some successfully !<br />poor nick had a really bad night.<br />i only made it worse for him ofcourse.<br />but i saved 2 beers for him<br />and im closing tomorrow and the next day, so ill try and get some then too.<br />yeah, i had a good time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:59719 2003-08-06T23:25:08Z 2003-08-06T23:25:08Z i hate everyone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:59646 2003-08-06T08:13:30Z 2003-08-06T08:13:30Z the doors - riders on the storm went to work<br />watched the doors with nick<br />tomorrow is gonna be a mess<br />i just can't wait urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:punkiepixie88:59344 2003-08-05T08:23:06Z 2003-08-05T08:23:06Z Dead Kennedys - terminal preppie YEAH DOODE! i had a funn day ! what the hell ? I know right. Caleb called me then came over and left... (WEIRD) Britni came over we went to DG and eventually met up with lauren and hung out with the crowd. I was glad to get out, and britni and lauren are absolutly nuts, which is good. Caleb mentioned school started in 3 weeks. I wanted to scream and kick him in the face. Tomorrow -WORK- !! YAY !